Last week I made acorn squash with essence of orange and maple syrup. I asked Larry to bring a spoon, as I thought that might be easier than a fork. He proudly came back with a grapefruit spoon. Silently I was annoyed. Didn’t I just ask him for a spoon? A regular spoon? I begrudgingly took it from him. I was tired and rather than open up with vulnerability, I found myself closing down with negativity. When I tried the spoon, which has unobtrusive serrating, it turned out to be an excellent choice for the squash. Larry likes to find the perfect tool for the job, and I was wrong to not trust him. In the past I wouldn’t have even tried the utensil. I would have marched into the kitchen to get a regular spoon. Yes, I have been known to be that petty. Yet in this instance, being open allowed for a better culinary experience.
For years as a defense mechanism I have needed to be right. I would even sacrifice a better experience than admit I was wrong. Or, I’d say I was wrong, but secretly think I was right. It’s hard to become a better person when I can’t be open to all that is unknown. There’s nothing like a pandemic to test the limitations of being right. So many of us thought this would be a short stint of sacrifice followed by triumph. It is anything but that.
I am faced with my foibles as I go through my days in a pandemic. For those of us who are parents, we see the cracks in our seemingly strong facades on a regular basis. As a therapist, I’m faced with the benefits and constraints of talk therapy. We have no answers now. We can talk about and work on making changes on how we deal with our current circumstances, but we cannot immediately change the national and global ills. Personally and professionally I believe speaking about our hardships with the intention of growing is invaluable. If you prefer something more active, vote. Also, we can deliberately make changes to the seemingly mundane. We just have to be open to doing something differently. Perhaps we’ll get it right if we admit we were wrong. It’s working for me. Thank you, Larry.
- Try using a grapefruit spoon for grapefruits, squash and anything else you deem applicable.
- Find a course or article online on art, music, dance or theater history. It’s great to dig a little deeper into an artform you appreciate.
- Change the way you put on your shoes, or other daily habit. If you’re a sock, shoe, sock shoe person, put both socks on first. If you always start with your right foot, start with your left. See how it feels to switch up an ingrained habit.
- If you are incorrect about something, see if you can admit to being wrong. It might feel like a lovely release.
- Do what you can. These can be challenging times, do what you can, appreciating you’re doing your best under the circumstances.