It felt so nice to find expanded trails on Randall’s Island yesterday. The monotony of life during the Coronavirus can be stifling. Though I walk daily, finding fresh paths and unseen sights has been challenging. And, to find them in places that are free from others is nearly impossible in the city. But I persevere as if it’s a made-up game to challenge the norm.
I’m coming up with a lot of private games. Can I meditate and let my thoughts pass by or will I go on a tangent and then find myself caught between my imagination and the present moment? Will I be able to find an isolated spot in the city and take a deep breath without my mask on because no one is around? Will I be able to employ grace in giving another the benefit of the doubt, or will I be judgmental? I am always the winner of these games. I am either humbled, understanding that I am still growing. Or, I was able to accomplish it in that moment, understanding that I will be playing that game again with no guarantee of same outcome next time around.
I hear so often how bored we are. When we don’t have our go-to activities it can feel boring to face the void. There are a lot of theories about boredom. Some experts think that acting out of boredom is a way to incite problems that give us something to focus on. Others think underneath boredom is anger. Still other experts postulate that boredom connotes a lack of purpose. All are understandable while our world confronts Covid-19.
We miss getting together with friends and family. Many miss public gatherings. Others miss going out. Naturally there’s a lot we miss. The pandemic has been a time of losses. Too many have lost their lives, others their health, a great many their livelihoods. And most everyone misses a sense of safety.
The upside of boredom is the opportunity it provides for innovation. We are in a position to discover ourselves anew. We may find out things about ourselves we never recognized. For instance, I always thought of myself as an active individual. I liked being busy. Though I, along with so many psychotherapists are busier than ever, I am resting more, making down time a priority. Or, we may find hidden corners of the city’s parks that allow us to move freely. Or, we find out that our value is not about what we have or what we do, but by how we live our lives. And, we can only discover these personal truths by living through the boredom.
- Find a quarantine concert. There are so many from Eryka Badu to Nora Jones and Norm Lewis. com has a list. And, this link was in the NY Times: https://www.nytimes.com/2020/07/21/arts/music/best-quarantine-concerts-livestream.html. There are so many more. Check out pages from your favorite artists or genres.
- The wonderful charity MIND has a 24-hour free helpline: 800-123-3393, this is a mental health hotline for those who are experiencing depression & anxiety.
- Give someone the benefit of the doubt. Rather than expecting them to behave a certain way, see if you can open yourself up for another possibility.
- I just heard this adage: If it’s hysterical it’s historical. When you’re feeling something deeply it can be a personal kindness to think of it as a way of working through something from your past that still plays a role in your emotional well-being.
- Give yourself permission to change your mind. Giving our word matters. Yet there are times when we are not up to doing what we committed to doing. You can then change your mind. More often than not the other person will feel relieved with the cancelled plans, to