As Autumn has created an uptick in activity, I am both excited to get out more and apprehensive as well. The surprising outcome of the pandemic was that I enjoyed my quiet time. What was surprising about it was that I lived a busy life and enjoyed juggling a schedule that allowed me to partake in the best New York City offers. The theater and museums were a mainstay for me. When everything shut down, I questioned how I would get on. The answer was very well.
Now, I am grappling with my desire to do less and my yearning for my old life. Being busy has its merits. There was always something to look forward to. I love the arts and was wowed by so much of it. And, if there was something I didn’t like, it didn’t really matter because there was something else around the corner.
However, taking things easy, enjoying peace, finding calm, and not being on the run provides a type of ease I hadn’t known I was missing. I am challenged to find the balance between good times out and savoring staying in.
When life circumstances change we learn new things about ourselves. In this new abnormal I wonder what I will learn about myself. I am curious to see how I can listen to what’s best for me, whether it’s a performance or a nap. I had learned how to check in with myself more these last couple of years. Yet I am flummoxed when it comes to ambivalence. Do I want to make dinner tonight by taking advantage of the largess from the farmer’s market, or do I want to keep it simple so I have a rare night off?
For tonight I’m making dinner and foregoing a dance performance. I wonder what tomorrow will bring.
- Check in with yourself a few times a day to see what you’re experiencing and how you feel. Checking in regularly helps during more stressful times when it’s easy to forget that checking in slows things down.
- When you’re in a quandary, rather than trying to figure out via the facts, try seeing how you feel physically when responding to the options.
- Cook, put together, or order something different for a meal. We change our thought pattern and possibly introduce something new to enjoy.